May. 1st, 2008

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I wish he would yell at me rather than this silence. I wish I met him in person rather than the internet. I would have read his fear much much much sooner and acted accordingly. I wish I could stop hurting. I wish I had some sort of hope for happiness in the future but I just see emptiness. I wish my heart could be satisfied without needing to be intimate with another human being...but it can not. I wish my deepest dreams did not involve family and love, but they do. I wish the man who awoke them so powerfully had not been also damaged. I wish I could enjoy spring and my birthday rather than wade through a bunch of pain and grasp at what I can.

I wish this fantasy had more basis in reality. I wish I could have helped him but he needed to want to change and I can't affect that. I wish...I don't know what to wish for. Love for me has been a sardonic joke. My brain has tried to approach it practically but my heart refuses to cooperate.

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